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July 30, 2007
day 30
I have today off of work. The whole day. It's a me day. I can't even begin to describe the excitement this has brought to my life. The joy is beyond mere words.
Why?
For the last 30 days I have been woken up by the alarm clock. Either because I have to go to work or run. I am by nature a morning person, I don't tend to sleep in. The concept of sleeping til 11am is foreign to me. But there is something wonderfully sinfully delicious about just waking up, when you choose.
I feel asleep smiling last night at the thought. I awoke, smiling. No Fergie on the radio. No bargaining with my time to have just one more snooze. I felt refreshed. Awake. Then I turned and looked at the clock, 6.45am! Six. Fourty. Five. That's earlier than my alarm normally goes off.
Then the thought entered my head. The smile was gone. I have to run. I have to run 3 miles today. My anxiety level started to rise. When? When would I do it? It's going to be hot today, it already looked hot. I should do it now. I'm awake, it's the coolest it's going to be all day.
So up I got. I could say I got dressed and out I went. But really I sat on the sofa for 30 minutes, doing, well really nothing. No motivational thoughts. No contemplation of whether to do it or not. Just sat there, in some sort of zombie trance.
Finally I got out there. I realised during the first few steps of the run what the zombie trance was.
Fear.
Fear of how this run was going to feel. It did not feel good people. It felt bad. It felt hard. It felt like the most unnatural thing I have even attempted. My form looked similar to a 90 year old arthritic, who badly needed to get to a toilet. I hobbled, stuffled and limped my way through the first half. Then I turned around and started to head back. My back straightened, my stride lenghtened and my pace picked up. It started to feel okay. People stopped staring at me. As I got back home, I realized I could keep going.
Of course I didn't! I'm amazing not stupid.
Speaking of my amazingness. I can officially add 'inspirational' to my list of wonderful attributes, the list that makes people stop and ask complete strangers ... "why is she single".
Yes folks, I have inspired. Check out Jank's blog and sign up for Augustathon!
I'm like the white Oprah. Tomorrow I will be listing (note not giving away) my favourite things.
Posted by Ali at July 30, 2007 9:15 AM
Comments
Thanks for the Plug, Ali!
Posted by: jank at July 30, 2007 11:28 AM
Gotta say, I was inspired as well.. thus the Rockin Girl Blogger nod you received in my post today. :)
Posted by: Amanda at July 30, 2007 11:39 AM
You're awesome! Count me in as one of the inspired, and that's not easy to do.
Posted by: Vanilla at July 30, 2007 11:52 AM
Well even though you were off and got up early and made it out the door is great.On a day off at that.Good for you!!!!
Posted by: rae at July 30, 2007 12:08 PM
i wish i could commit to an augusthon but i have a week vacation. no way.
maybe i will shoot for september.
Posted by: justjunebug at July 30, 2007 4:59 PM
The only thing that I can GUARANTEE that I can do for a solid month is eat. However, to make it more challenging, I could attempt to eat ice cream every day for a month.
btw---best quote of the post "I'm amazing not stupid." I gotta use that one--complete with proper citation, of course.
Posted by: Tea at July 30, 2007 8:09 PM