just enjoy
ever since christmas, and going home... work and new years, and then my birthday (which, thank you for all the well wishes. i love bloggy land!), i've just been going a mile a minute. or rather, life, or at least day-to-day time, has just seemed to be in a perpetual state of fast-forward. and its all i can do to just keep up.
between new years resolutions, and new years eve fiascos, to holy-crap-i'm-26-what-am-i-doing-with-my-life revelations, somewhere in there, i forgot something.
and today... i was reminded...
"it's all good. life is good. just enjoy."
in trying to make sure that my 26th year is all that it can be, i forgot half of it is just sitting back and enjoying it.
the chaos of my life, the chaos that is causing me a small amount of BOOGIDA BOOGIDA right now, is the same chaos in my life that i just... that i love. its who i am.
i dont have it all figured out. i don't know what i'm doing or where i'm going. i get lost. figuratively and literally. almost on a daily basis.... my apartment flip-flops between perfect organization, and having scattered within it every piece of clothing that i own, because i cannot dress for an evening out without trying on all combinations of outfits paired with shoes, and should my hair be up or down? curly or straight? do i need more eye shadow or am i good?...
every month, without fail, i receive my bills in the mail, and spend two or three good days wondering if i already paid it online, or do i need to send a check. and then usually do both, creating for myself quite a situation the next day when its time to buy groceries.... i am so scatterbrained in the morning, dressing for work in the dark, that earlier this week i showed up to the gym with two right shoes, making that days run rather impossible....the next day i forgot my t-shirt. prompting my boss to seriously question my state of mind.
i create for myself the most ridiculous of situations.. whether its playing O Come All Ye Faithfull in the middle of Silent Night.... thinking i live in a chinese restaurant, or just being so dumb-founded on the phone when certain male specimens call, that i stutter my way thru the entire situation as though i have yet to develop any social skills what-so-ever.
all of its me. and its fun. its funny. its just life. and its a good life, and its my life, and i dont know what i was thinking, trying to make it into so much more.
i worked so hard last year to get to the point where i actually like who i am. so this year, my 26th year, i will, yes, i will strive for that 5 hour marathon. i will attempt to lose those inches around the middle... i'll save more money, and i'll learn to swim and join that TRI-team. yes its true, i will do all those things.
but mostly, i'll just be me. with no apologies and no excuses.. i'll remember to sit back and enjoy whatever mess it is i've managed to get myself into, and i'll laugh.
cuz "its all good. life is good. just enjoy"
Comments
DATE: 4:53 PM
That's why people keep coming back to your blog -- because you are so thoroughly yourself in everything you write.
Posted by: mental runner | July 4, 2006 8:03 PM
DATE: 5:58 PM
Very wise words for such a young lady. Took me many years to learn the lessons you've already come to on your own. A wise older friend always said to me whenever I was in a tough spot, "Just remember, you're living a life."Make it yours!! You're doing great!
Posted by: Lora | July 4, 2006 8:03 PM
DATE: 5:11 PM
Thanks - sometimes I need to be reminded of that too. :)
Posted by: BuckeyeRunner | July 4, 2006 8:03 PM
DATE: 7:14 PM
Life IS good. I bought Pippin a Life is Good collar to help remind myself of how fortunate I am, and in every run I thank God for the ability just to be able to run. It may not be pretty and I may not be an 'elite' but it feels good just to be able to move!!Happy Belated birthday and congrats on M#2! I signed up for my first M the night before my 28th birthday!
Posted by: Rae | July 4, 2006 8:03 PM
DATE: 6:31 PM
Here! Here!!! Nicely said :)
Posted by: Tammy | July 4, 2006 8:03 PM
DATE: 6:02 AM
it's that balance between 'doing' and 'being.'and you're there. you got it.(p.s. - i love chaos too.)
Posted by: Running Chick | July 4, 2006 8:03 PM
DATE: 5:11 AM
Happy late birthday.
Posted by: Susan | July 4, 2006 8:03 PM
DATE: 7:21 PM
Awesome! Happy birthday--enjoy your year!!! :)
Posted by: TriSaraTops | July 4, 2006 8:03 PM
DATE: 8:25 AM
You have a such a way of putting things into perspective for me. Read my post from Wednesday (Racing Mind, Not Feet) and you will see that i too and in the faster faster mode. And sometimes I just have to be reminded to slow down. Thanks for reminding me :)
Posted by: Amy | July 4, 2006 8:03 PM
DATE: 7:15 AM
Exactly......life IS good! Enjoy it!
Posted by: The Running Red Sox Fan | July 4, 2006 8:03 PM
DATE: 7:09 AM
YEAH join that tri team!!!!! WOO ;)
Posted by: Wil | July 4, 2006 8:03 PM
DATE: 9:37 AM
great post, good job! and look: NO QUESTIONS! :)
Posted by: jeanne | July 4, 2006 8:03 PM
DATE: 9:35 AM
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! This is going to be a great year!
Posted by: brent d. | July 4, 2006 8:03 PM
DATE: 9:24 AM
awesome post. thanks.
Posted by: Curly Su | July 4, 2006 8:03 PM
DATE: 10:19 AM
This post totally hit home for me; you make such a great point.Especially this: "but mostly, i'll just be me. with no apologies and no excuses.. i'll remember to sit back and enjoy whatever mess it is i've managed to get myself into, and i'll laugh."Thanks for the revelation :)
Posted by: A Cloud's Yin | July 4, 2006 8:03 PM
DATE: 10:10 AM
Happy Belated Birthday! Did you pick a marathon to run yet, btw? I think I'm settling on San Diego...
Posted by: Nic | July 4, 2006 8:03 PM
DATE: 9:55 AM
so true...
Posted by: Josh | July 4, 2006 8:03 PM
DATE: 12:50 PM
That was great! Thanks for the reminder :)
Posted by: Jen | July 4, 2006 8:03 PM
DATE: 10:57 AM
brilliant post! you are so on your way Alejandra... just enjoy it.i'm bestowing upon you one of my highest honors... a 26 p-dawg salute!
Posted by: Bolder | July 4, 2006 8:03 PM
DATE: 1:26 PM
And there's that inspiration I was talking about. You're a regular little sage!
Posted by: Daniel | July 4, 2006 8:03 PM
DATE: 6:00 PM
well said, couldn't agree more!
Posted by: Ali | July 4, 2006 8:03 PM