Little Miss Runner Pants

i know this sounds... braggy. or.. i dunno. show-offy or.. something? i dunno. there's a better word for it than what i'm coming up with.. i...

hmm. i know this sounds.. the way it sounds. but, i'm going to say it anyway.

i'm totally loving my life right now.

i know, i know. it sounds... i dunno. weird. people don't normally go around shouting with glee at their own fabulous life, because... well. its kind of a no-no. people tend to frown upon that, but.

i don't care.

officially.... i don't care. because i'm happy. i'm that kind of happy that's.... not over emotional or giddy or excited, or anything like that, but... content.

and where as some might find being "content" with your life, a bad thing.. i went ahead and looked it up and..

content: Desiring no more than what one has; satisfied.

and that's what i am. right now, in this moment... i desire nothing more.

and in my life, being who i am.. the way i am... that doesn't happen all too often. and, to be honest, i know myself well enough to know... it won't last all that long either!

so i'm basking in it.

what's with the sudden onslaught of contentedness?! well...

its a combination of things.

it's work not driving me absolutely bonkers and having fun with my co-workers-- while the network goes down, i lose the last hour's worth of work and the dude three cubes over whistles christmas songs.... incessantly.

it's going to crossfit (bootcamp), getting yelled at for inadequate wall-balls, doing over 200 squats in one day, running in 100 degree heat, and seeing results after a month.

it's meeting a new group of people that get it in a way nobody else i know does, "me-tooing" my way into tri-training, and then being asked to join their thursday v-ball team afterwards, because.. "we could really use some more girls on the team, and... we suck, but... it's fun!!!".

it's having skipped a week's worth of runs, not beating myself up about it, and finally getting back to the point where i can't wait to get back out there again.

and... it's the irony of being too busy to make time for those social hours i was so upset about not getting invited to so many weeks ago.

its.... balance.

its that balance i was looking for, searching for, just a few months ago.

it's everything i've been wanting and needing and hoping for coming together in perfect timing, and i don't care what it sounds like. i don't know how it happened, what brought it on, or why...

i just know that it did.
and i can't help it....

i'm happy.
and there just ain't nothin' more to say!