Little Miss Runner Pants

well folks, this is it.

i for REAL have to move tonight. my lease is up as of midnight today and against all odds, i've found a place to live!

a house maybe? a new abode to rent?!

HECK NO!! i live in limbo.. why would i search for an actual place of residence when instead i can store my life in a box and chill out at a friends?!

its brilliant... I KNOW!!

so.. until i figure out what sort of internet situation Hallmark Girl's got goin' on at her place.. i'm out for the next few days. so with that..

i leave you with this.... (basically.. an update i wrote to a friend who after hearing it insisted i should share with ze verld. she made a good point that.. maybe i'm not the only one out there that felt/feels what i did, and.. its time to share!

it's not entertaining though, so read on if you dare.)

here's what's up.

about a month+ ago i started getting really depressed. i was lethargic all the time, i was in a bad mood, i was tired, and was making NO headway fitness-wise. (i.e. my weight-loss didn't just plateau, i started gaining again. and all those pull-ups and push-ups i used to be able to do?

not anymore. i wasn't just frustrated..i was having trouble with finding energy to care.)

at about this time a doctor at my crossfit gym offered to have me come in so she could do a full body scan. basically tell me whats up with my hydration, body fat, metabolism... the works.

basically she found
1.) she thinks i'm over-trained (or more likely under-recovered)
2.) my body is stressed, and has been for such a long time, that my hormones are effed and are no longer breaking down fat cells. hence working out all the time, eating right, but getting no where
3.) i don't get enough fat in my diet, or protein, and because i eat so much fruit.. i get too many carbs.

and wtf..i eat too much fruit!?! i didn't even know you could do that.

4.) she thinks i'm hypoglycemic, which.. okay. and..
5.) my basal metabolic rate is somewhere around 1300 calories... so on days i'm working out really hard (at the time... almost everyday).. i wasn't eating enough.

unfortunately we didn't really talk about how to FIX it, outside of a diet change, so i walked away pretty much hearing THIS:

"all the work you've been doing for the last 6 months has, in essence, set you back 6 months. you've pushed yourself too hard, and now your body is giving you the big middle finger and you're screwed.

oh, and that diet that you've been trying to stick to? its totally wrong for you"

i was crushed. i felt so defeated. like.. wow. okay. all that work for nothing??? REALLY!??!?!

good @%$#-ing times.

after some-what pulling myself together i talked to some friends and we decided i need some time off. what it boiled down to was...

two weeks -- recover.
eat more fat, more protein.. basically eat MORE.
start training in a cyclical manner so my body's constantly being challenged in NEW ways.

not just MORE of the old ways.

so... two weeks ended yesterday. and after the inital omg i feel like a cow i can't believe i haven't worked out in 2, 3, 9+ days....

i feel great. AND.. i now know to listen to my body.
now if i can just stop trying to keep up with all these athletes that have been active for years..

i might have just learned a thing or two!