Little Miss Runner Pants

i just picked up my 3 printed off calendar pages with my running schedule on them.

i just picked up my 3 printed off calendar pages----- with JULY sitting on top.

i just picked up my 3 printed off pages and realized JULY has been sitting on top... for a while now!

and.... because i never really know what day it is, where i am, or what i'm supposed to be doing..

i'm only just now realizing that...

ITS.
NOT.
J-U-L-Y-!

omg. omgomg.

:: long exhale. composure. ::

i. have been running. the last week of july.....

for three. WEEKS.

this is like some really horrible case of deja vu or.. or.. GROUNDhogs day... or SOMEthing, where i just keep repeating the same week of runs..

over and over and over again.

(and did i even notice?! NO! why would i? i just blindly go through life like a bobble head, doing whatever it is my plan tells me to, putting no thought into it what-so-ever... never even turning the page of my calendar. OH MY GAWD!)

so now three weeks later, i should be up to a 10 mile run, and??!!!!

i haven't been out there for more than a total of :70 minutes...

SINCE THE SUMMER OF '06.

i am so screwed. i am totally and utterly screwed. i cannot believe this. i don't even comprehend myself sometimes.

this cannot be happening.

*sigh*

yeah, so turns out... i've been running consistently for over a month, and yet still?
i'm three weeks behind.

of course this would happen to me.

*double sigh*

i don't know whether to cry or to laugh.

i mean..

COME ON!!!!!

besides having to now get motivated to go out and do a run i was technically supposed to have done two weeks ago... now i have to go find another plan, catch up with where i'm now supposed to be, and try and get back onto my originalplan.

i am such an idiot.....

this is just plain DUMB!