learning to trust myself.
i don't know when i'm gunna learn.
i don't know when i'm going to finally listen to all the little bells and whistles and alarms going off all around me in the face of what i think to be a totally perfect guy.
whoa, wait a sec. what's that thing flapping in my face bugging the shit out of me?!!?... a RED FLAG!!?!
nah. no way.. that can't be it.
i mean, seriously. what is WRONG with me?!?!
more or less from the beginning with this one, i had my doubts.
he took my sarcasm literally, he got his feelings hurt when i made a joke, and he questioned my need to be so healthy all the time.
but i let it go. we're just getting to learn each other. it'll be fine. blaming our all too often arguments on the fact that we liked each other so much.
......... because THAT makes sense?!?!
what the feck?
but i thought he was THE ONE!
(or ok. i never thought he was THE one. but he was maybe.. one of the ones that was going to lead me to THE ONE. )
he was cute. and tall. and had curly hair.
he was a sweet guy (but maybe a little too sweet for me. turns out i really need a guy with a little spunk), and he made me laugh..
i always fall for the ones that make me laugh..
and he liked me. so why shouldn't i like him back?!
... turns out, anymore... that's just not enough for me.
i deserve more than that.
and while, yeah, it took me a while to finally realize that this time around.. the point is, i DO.
and hopefully next time, when that red flag starts waving.. i'll sit up, take notice, and trust my instincts for once!
Comments
Man, on man, dating is hard! Hang in there :) You're in a great mindset so you're going to be fine!
Posted by: Sarah | August 22, 2008 12:08 PM
better you find out now than later.
sorry though. still sucks.
Posted by: jeanne | August 22, 2008 12:13 PM
:( and :) all at the same time...but more :) than :(
and you know why.
Posted by: stronger | August 22, 2008 12:26 PM
Someday I'll have to tell you the story of the match.com guy I met and dated and then named 'Red Flags' the way you named "Army Guy", etc. It happens and here's why. To quote you "he was cute. and tall. and had curly hair. ...he was a sweet guy (but maybe a little too sweet for me. turns out i really need a guy with a little spunk), and he made me laugh.."
Sometimes you just WANT the rest to be okay so you roll with it. As you noted, you figured it out pretty fast this time and that's progress!!
Posted by: 21stCenturyMom | August 22, 2008 1:19 PM
ok, so i know we haven't communicated for a while, but i just wanted to let you know that i'm in exactly the same situation right now... so if you need or want someone to commiserate with, i'm out here.
Posted by: curlysu | August 22, 2008 1:46 PM
Yes, trust yourself - and know that there's always another train coming.
Posted by: Donald | August 22, 2008 3:24 PM
What to say?.I hope you find your MAN for your live!.
Groet Rinus.
http://rinusrunning.punt.nl/?home=1
Posted by: Rinus | August 22, 2008 4:47 PM
I am so sorry. You will probably kiss more frogs before you find your prince. He definitely sounded like a frog. Hang in there.
Posted by: Denise "Firefly" | August 23, 2008 5:27 AM
Bummer.
His loss for sure. :)
Posted by: TJ | August 23, 2008 6:18 AM
AJ, I need to come visit with my Donkey, who happens to be a very good psychologist.
Posted by: runner susan | August 23, 2008 4:18 PM
i need deets. let's email tomorrow. xoxo
Posted by: Kim | August 24, 2008 5:33 PM
i need deets. let's email tomorrow. xoxo
Posted by: Kim | August 24, 2008 5:34 PM