The Voices in My Head
Muddled voices emanate from the clock buried under stacks of books on my nightstand. I clumsily knock a few to the floor as I try to stay asleep while turning off the alarm. I roll back over with the pillow over my head, deciding that I am too tired to run, and glad that the normal rock music did not come blaring out of the radio, otherwise I might wake up too much.
A male's deep voice announces, "You know, I used to be really overweight."
His sidekick, another male with the deep announcer voice, replies, "Yeah, Steve, me too."
Steve says, "But then we picked up a copy of GQ, and you know who was on the front cover?"
"Ethan Hawke!" exclaims the sidekick.
"And Paul, man, lemme tell ya, did he look fit!"
"He used to be so pudgy, Steve, and then he started running. And look at how good he looks!"
"So we started running, too, and now we look fantastic!"
And I wake up, grumpy, wondering if Ethan Hawke was ever pudgy. I curse my subconscious for creating a radio show to guilt me into getting up as I don my running clothes and head out the door. It's hot out this morning and I am tired and dizzy and can't take deep breaths. It's been just one day shy of two weeks since I last ran, and I can tell. Before leaving, I had stepped on the scale and was pleased to note I actually dropped a pound. I spend the run wondering if that meant I lost some muscle during the last two weeks of inactivity. I also ponder the dizziness that's been plaguing me since the morning before. I had to leave my yoga class halfway through the previous night; I was too dizzy to continue. The changes in my life are not medically related, and the dizziness is throwing me for a loop. I decide to take iron pills and B-12 in case I'm anemic.
I walk a lot during the run, but I decide to not judge myself. I got up; I put on my clothes; I went for a run. That's the important part. I am getting back into the groove.
Comments
yeah, i wondered that too about Ethan Hawke, never thought of him as pudgy.. glad you are finding your groove
Posted by: neese | July 3, 2007 08:44 AM
glad to hear you got yourself back out there again. after a nearly 2 week layoff, it's smart to take it easy... you could call this post "how pink fuzzy got her groove back" :)
Posted by: E-Rod | July 3, 2007 08:37 PM
Aww...I bet it felt to be back out there. Take care with the dizzy stuff though...do you think it could be panic from whatever is going on in your life? Take care of you!!
Posted by: Javamom | July 3, 2007 08:56 PM
Hi,
I'm so very glad you're back. I was worried. Strange to be worried about somebody you don't even know, but there it is.
Glad you're back running. I love your blog, it keeps me going. Thanks.
Posted by: Gabrielle | July 4, 2007 02:48 AM
Losing weight and feeling dizzy can be signs of other things. I went through a stage when I was dizzy every morning, around the time I exercised. (Not pregnant!)
I went to the doctor and we figured out what it was. I had to make some dietary modifications and that helped.
If it keeps up, see the doc, OK?
Posted by: Sarah Elaine | July 4, 2007 04:32 AM
Hi Angie -
I've been hidin' out for a long time too. I'm trying to get my grove back also.
Keep runnin' - you are a great inspiration!
Posted by: Tanya | July 4, 2007 11:47 AM
As someone who lives north of you, but is sharing our mutual heat wave, perhaps dehydration may be part of the issue?
I've been dehydrated enough times in the desert to know that it is subtle and can knock you on your ass for several days if you're not mindful.
Hope you're feeling better.
hak
Posted by: hakado | July 4, 2007 02:34 PM
Got up, put clothes and went out the door - that's what I respect the most, not the speed or miles! Besides, it's a wonderful stress reducer, at least for theta hour.
And I think about dehydration too.
Posted by: olga | July 5, 2007 08:43 AM
Good on ya for getting out there... Too funny about your semi-awake dream.
Posted by: Josh | July 5, 2007 10:22 AM
I'm with Olga, just getting out there and doing is more important than anything else. Rock on!
Posted by: Chad in the AZ Desert | July 5, 2007 06:15 PM
keep on groovin' Angie!
nice writing here, btw.
Posted by: darrell | July 6, 2007 11:24 AM
ehhh...ethan's figure isn't the "bomb". he joggs up and down the west side highway and runs the treadmill at my gym once in a while. but I think he only does it so he won't get too chubby. he seems to enjoy the easy life.
but what ever motivates you..i think people who run are COOL!!!
Posted by: steph | July 7, 2007 04:50 PM