So the last time I mentioned running, it was going fantastic. Well, that was extremely short-lived and I'm back to having it suck again. I'm tired of everything right now; this has not been a particularly good week. Cramps, sore boobs that kept me from running on Tuesday and hurt enough yesterday and today that I was really tempted to run with my arms wrapped around my chest, being extremely busy at work (getting to sit down a total of maybe 5-10 minutes), feeling like a fatass because I can't fit into any of the dresses I own and have nothing to wear for my BIL's wedding next weekend and therefore having to go shopping in MSP this weekend even though everything's just going to look ugly on me - which will be captured for all of time by pictures UGH!! ... At least I can get my hair highlighted on Monday!
Probably because so many people are starting to get ready to train for their fall marathons, but I'm feeling really ... sad? frustrated? envious? I want to be training for something. I'm sick of having my life on hold. But unless we shelve the whole TTC idea, that's all I can keep doing. I probably shouldn't even be running what I have been, even though the RE said it's fine since we've resorted to drugs, so attempting to train for something isn't really an option. And I can't even look forward to next year, since that's up in the air. Today I was thinking that I'm kind of mad because I have basically squandered all of the hard work I did last year. Last August, I was at my lowest weight and running my fastest and knocking out 50 mpw ... now I am flabby and struggle to run 5 miles at anything faster than 9:30/mi and hitting 26 mpw was a big accomplishment.
I'm obviously full of whine lately!
Here's some cute puppy from 2 weekends ago:
Molly in my car. She likes to alternate between laying down and trying to touch me with her nose, and sitting up and looking around. She hates getting into the car, but she loves going for a ride. Weird puppy. (Her leash buckles into the seatbelt, so she doesn't ride around untethered).
Molly at my parents' house. She had a great time playing with her ball; she didn't care that she was on a tie-out. She was confused by the green grass, though. We've never had grass like my parents' do.
What changed? I tried to go back a few posts but couldn't find the hints as to what your accronyms mean. So I'll just say good luck and hang in there.
Hey--
I know how you feel about squandering training... I had a great training cycle for Chicago, BQd and now feel out of shape and I'm nursing a knee strain and low motivation... Good luck with TTC and everything else.
OK, I must have missed the TTC thing too.
Try to hang in there, mg. These things are temporary. Your training will come back. It in your genes to run, and nothing will take that away.
Maybe a break is what you need. Remember that not everybody can run as fast as you and some just don't have the capability to run. Hang in there - motivation will come back.
I kind of like the not training thing myself...I've been not training for a bit now and like just going out and running 40-50 miles a week for no reason. Although I feel lazy not having done more than 15 miles I think in the last month or two for a long run. Hopefully things will come together for you though on the TTC...try not to stress about it too much. And you are by no means fat!