Ugly Toes

The Engineer was later than I expected yesterday, and I did a really good job of acting normal when I called to see when he expected to leave work. He definitely had no clue I had big news for him - and Chicago Bears newborn and 3-6 mo onesies. (I had bought them back in December when I had hopes things wouldn't take so long, planning on giving them to the Engineer when I found out I was pregnant). We aren't telling people right now, hence the reason these posts are being kept in draft status, but I had to call my parents. I saw my mom online and said hey, and then threw her off track by talking about Molly's birthday and the wading pool I'd bought her. Then I asked if my dad was around and said I had a picture I thought he'd like to see, too. (Mom later said when she asked Dad to come to the computer that he guessed I was pregnant). Once they were both at the computer, I sent them a picture with the two positive digital tests. After I gave enough time for the picture to load, I called and we talked for just over an hour.

I haven't run or exercised all week. Mondays I normally use to run errands and such. Tuesday, I was feeling kind of weird and decided not to run "just in case." Yesterday, I was obviously preoccupied! I'm kind of scared to run right now. In theory, I should be fine to run as long as I take it easy ... but in theory, I shouldn't have had issues with my periods and running, either. And this just doesn't feel real yet, and I'm so nervous about doing something detrimental ... Maybe over the weekend, when I can get outside when it's cooler and I can just run based on feel ... the treadmill makes me nervous because my heart rate is always higher on it than it is outside. Tomorrow I have a half-day at work and after I run some errands I think I'll maybe just walk on the treadmill so I can do something active, but not taxing.

Interesting: I figure I implanted over the weekend - which might explain why Friday's outside run was ok and Sunday's was almost 30 seconds/mile slower and the last mile was over 10 mpm.

I called my doctor's office today and went in for a blood test. They confirmed that the HPTs were not flukes, which I wasn't extremely concerned about but it was still a relief. What sucks is that they would have me come in for my "confirmation of pregnancy" appointment around July 19 (3 weeks away) - that's where they do an ultrasound and we (hopefully) hear a heartbeat - but they only do those on Monday and they are booked on the 23rd so we can't go in until the 30th - a whole month away. After we see them, they release me to my OB. Since I'm not sure we're going to go with that hospital, I almost wonder if the county hospital would get me in for my first prenatal appointment sooner. Maybe I'll call tomorrow to see.